Friday morning I woke up.
I'd been through a lot.
The last weeks have been stressful.
I kept it all in as best I could.
When I told him, he was there for me.
He loved me unconditionally.
After all this I would be okay.
Friday morning I woke up.
I felt older.
I felt a shift had occurred in the night.
Friday when I woke up I was different.
I had crossed a bridge and couldn't return.
I have built myself a life.
I choose the things I keep around.
I do things I want.
My life is a series of moments.
All beautiful and then gone.
I woke up on Friday with a sense of intention.
To take care of myself and my life.
To love deeply and true.
I woke up in control.
I woke up peaceful and joyous.
Really, when I woke up Friday morning, the wealth of my experiences and lessons in life took hold and I woke up feeling sure of life and the choices I've made to bring me here.
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Secrets
Im not a big fan of secrets. I don't like keeping them, I do because thats what you do with secrets. I have them, you have them, everyone has them. There is even a community built on sharing secrets. I have one that is burning me up right now. I think I'll send in a postcard because I cant take it anymore, and I can't tell either. Thanks for listening.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Dreaming
I had the strangest dream last night.
I was at someones house, my step-dad's? or Keith's?
I went out with friends and it was a long night, I don't remember what we did.
But the next day I looked awful. Like I had aged forty years overnight.
My breasts were hollow flaps of skin hanging down to my belly which was also
floppy and sagging in rolls so long they covered my genitals.
My face was the same way, hanging wrinkles and pock marks.
To top it all off, I was pregnant.
Sometimes waking up, however early, has its benefits. I cant imagine where that dream was going.
On that note, time for coffee, breakfast, and homework. I have a meeting with my new boss to schedule my hours this afternoon, and I'll throw Mel's shoes in the mail. (The new job is a new division of the winery I work at, its a juice and coffee bar. YAY Espresso!)
I was at someones house, my step-dad's? or Keith's?
I went out with friends and it was a long night, I don't remember what we did.
But the next day I looked awful. Like I had aged forty years overnight.
My breasts were hollow flaps of skin hanging down to my belly which was also
floppy and sagging in rolls so long they covered my genitals.
My face was the same way, hanging wrinkles and pock marks.
To top it all off, I was pregnant.
Sometimes waking up, however early, has its benefits. I cant imagine where that dream was going.
On that note, time for coffee, breakfast, and homework. I have a meeting with my new boss to schedule my hours this afternoon, and I'll throw Mel's shoes in the mail. (The new job is a new division of the winery I work at, its a juice and coffee bar. YAY Espresso!)
Sunday, March 25, 2012
This week in the life of..
Me. Work, test, painting (for class, must replicate an 'old master' painting.. I'm doing the image below), work.
I spent the majority of my day (10am - 4:30) vegging out in front of the television. Poor choice. Couldn't even motivate myself to get up and make coffee. Thank goddess I had to work or I might be dead by now. Work was nice. Eghan is gone to L.A. for two months, will miss him.. but plan on visiting him in a few weeks. Love is pretty all consuming eh? Well, thats it really.. miss you girls. More later when life is possibly more interesting.
I spent the majority of my day (10am - 4:30) vegging out in front of the television. Poor choice. Couldn't even motivate myself to get up and make coffee. Thank goddess I had to work or I might be dead by now. Work was nice. Eghan is gone to L.A. for two months, will miss him.. but plan on visiting him in a few weeks. Love is pretty all consuming eh? Well, thats it really.. miss you girls. More later when life is possibly more interesting.
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